15/24 Book Reflection
House of Purple Cedar by Tim Tingle (Choctaw Nation)
“She was talking about the broken world we were now slipping into.” This book took me a long time to read. I have trouble with heavy writing when it hits so close to home. This like other Indigenous writing is emotionally trying for me. It’s important to take it all in, to read every word to best understand the pain that is being shared. I loved this book. I felt everything as I read. Tingle’s writing drew me in and though it was tough read because of the graphic contents, I think it tells a good story (mostly) from the perspective of a young Native girl.
I still love my job. I work with great people who make me feel needed and appreciated. But, I’ve been felling lonely a lot lately. It’s not that I don’t have friends here, I do, I have good friends that I enjoy spending time with, but I miss my home. I miss my partner every day and it’s exhausting, missing him. I’m losing motivation for being here, which is fine since I know I’m leaving at the end of my contract, but still. It does help that in only 44 days I’ll be seeing Chris for Christmas. I’m so excited for us to spend time together. I’m not a huge fan of Christmas, but this one is going to be the absolute best. It’s weird, but I’m feeling more lonely as the days tick off until our vacation. Maybe it’s just finally hitting me full force how lonely I am without his presence everyday.
Anyway, I’m doing a lot of planning and the structure of figuring things out and saving for the trip does help me feel better. It reminds me that I need to go through this time to have a good time in the future. I’m also trying to spend more time not alone. Going out and seeing things, hanging out with other ALTs, it helps me feel not alone. I went to Izumo-taisha, it was beautiful and I learned so much. I can’t wait to go again, this time to appreciate it with what I learned from my previous visit.
Except for feeling lonely, I’m doing pretty well. School can be overwhelming at times. The classes I’m taking this semester are not really in my wheelhouse, and it’s tough. I’m excited for next semester though. It’s funny, next semester will actually be a lot more hours of work, but I think it won’t feel like it because it’s more stuff I enjoy.
Okay, that’s it.
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Currently Reading: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince by JK Rowling
Currently Playing: Earthbound/3DS; Elder Scrolls Skyrim/Switch; The Longest 5 Minutes/Switch
Reading List: Sacre Bleu by Christopher Moore; Starvation Mode by Elissa Washuta
Playing List: Wonderboy, Bayonetta 2, Skyrim, LoZ A Link Between Worlds, Culdcept Revolt; Bayonetta/Switch; Stella Glow/3DS; Detective Pikachu/3DS